Chapter 130
Chapter 130
Quirin
The entire ride home, Kennedy mentally shut me out. I don’t know if it’s as hard for her as it is for me. I pretty much keep the link between us closed all the time and she’s never said anything about it. But for me, it feels like torturé.
I can smell the salt of her tears, see her quickly brushing away any evidence of her sadness and by the time we get back to the pack, I can’t take it anymore. I have no idea what’s wrong and it’s killing me. I can’t fix it, I can’t make her happy, if I don’t know what’s making her unhappy.
Unfortunately, we walk into the Arlo shitshow. Just the fact that several warriors are standing up against Kier has me seeing red. It’s not just Arlo. Now he’s got his brother and some others joining in his rebellion.
Kier is right, I probably should have just killed him for being insubordinate, sent a message to the entire pack about what happens when you challenge me or my Beta, but my focus is on Kennedy. I need to know what’s going on with her and what happened to make the light in my little mate go out. Arlo can rot for all I care. Kennedy is more important.
When I get upstairs, she’s leaning against the wall, looking out over the back of our pack lands. She’s changed out of her dress and her hair is down.
“Everything okay?” she asks, barely turning her head to look at me.
I close the door. “If you mean about Arlo, then yeah. He’s been dealt with. If you mean about you, then no, Kennedy Everything is not okay.”
“It’s fine, Quirin,” she says, turning and walking to the bed. “It’s late. You need to be up early for warrior training.” Her voice is so sad that it’s breaking my heart.
“Kennedy, what happened tonight? Everything was fine and then it wasn’t. I’d be worried that someone said something to you, but I was with you all night. And you’ve shut me out. Something must be wrong if you’ve closed off your mind to me,” I
say.
She turns and gives me a look of total disbelief. “Are you kidding me right now? You NEVER open your mind to me, Quirin. Never! I have no idea what you’re thinking, what you’re feeling, whether you’re having a shitty day or if something incredible happens. I never have a single clue about what’s going on with you. I have to wait for you to tell me.”
She stops, shaking her head. “It’s fine, Quirin. I just…I finally came to terms with reality tonight, that’s all.” “What reality are you talking about, Kennedy?” I say slowly, feeling like she’s slipping through my fingers.
“That I’m just like all the others,” she says, her voice breaking and her eyes filling with tears.
I take a step toward her and she looks away from me.
“What others? What are you talking about, Little Pup?” I ask, getting a sick feeling in my gut.
She makes a sound that’s half laugh, half sob before she looks at me. “I’m just another of your one night stands, only your mark is on my neck. You must feel so strangled being stuck with me,” she says as the tears begin to trek down her face.
I feel nausea roiling in my stomach at her words. “What the fuck are you talking about, Kennedy? You’re my mate. You’re not some woman I use for release and then walk away.”
“Aren’t I? Why won’t you touch me Quirin? I watched my brother and Madison tonight. They couldn’t stop touching and kissing. That won’t change tomorrow. If anything it will only increase and yet, I can barely get you to kiss me and when you do, it’s for only the briefest of moments and then you pull away.
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I close my eyes, trying to get hold of my emotions. I feel like I’m on the verge of losing control again.
“You think I don’t want you?” I ask quietly.
“I know you don’t. Mates can hardly ever keep their hands off of each other, but you barely touch me.”
Before I’m consciously aware of what I’m doing, I’ve grabbed Kennedy around the waist and pressed her against the wall. “You think I don’t want to touch you? All I want to do all fucking lay long is bury myself in your sweet heat, Kennedy. You drive me fucking insane,” I growl.
“Then why? Why won’t you touch me? Why won’t you be with me?” she asks as her tears continue to slide down her cheeks.
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“Because, Kennedy,” I say through gritted teeth, trying hard to hold on the last little bit of control I have left. “Being inside you, marking you, connecting with you was the most exquisite feeling I’ve ever experienced. Being with you was like fucking nirvana. I swear I touched the Moon Goddess‘ realm when I was inside you Kennedy. I lost control, I lost myself inside you, and I hurt you. I wasn’t gentle with you. I wanted to be, but… I lost control and I’ve been trying to gain control over myself and my body when I’m around you, but I can’t. I don’t want to hurt you, Kennedy. I never want to hurt you,” I say, my voice pleading with her to understand.
“You not touching me, not treating me like your mate, hurts me so much more than any pain I had when you were inside me,” she says softly.
And what is left of my restraint snaps. I smash my mouth against hers, devouring her, possessing her in the way that I’ve needed to since our first night together.
Her legs wrap around me and her arms tighten around my neck as I push off the wall and carry her to the bed.
I sit her on the edge of the bed and rip the nightshirt she’s wearing down the front. I slide my hands down her body, cupping her breasts and stroking her nipples. She gasps, her head falling back. I growl possessively before leaning in to lick and suck on her neck, sucking my mark into my mouth and loving the sound of her moan as her citrus and mint scent begins to permeate the air around us.
“Lie back,” I growl. She does as I ask, watching me. I run my hands over her body, my own body shivering with my need for her, my dick throbbing in my pants.
“I never again want to hear you say that you’re like the others. You are nothing like them, Kennedy. You are my everything I close my mind off to you because you are everything that is bright and beautiful in this world and I am not. I don’t want to taint your beauty with my anger and resentment. I know you felt my darkness. You shouldn’t have to deal with that.”
“It’s part of who you are, Quirin. I love you. I love every part of you, even the darkness. It’s made you the man you are and the man you are, is the man that is perfect for me. You were made for me, just as I was made for you,” she says.
I watch my fingers as they slide through her soaked pussy lips, looking back up when I hear her gasp.
“I told you before that I don’t know how to be gentle. But I’ll try. I’ll try to be gentle, Kennedy.”
She sits up, taking my face in her hands. “I was made for you. I can take whatever you give me. Don’t hold back, Quirin. I want it all. I want your love, your fire, your passion, and your darkness. Give it all to me,” she says softly. My eyes sting with the tears that come from hearing her words.
I gently push her back on the bed and resume my examination of her body, my fingers gliding over her soft skin as I listen to her sweet sounds of pleasure.
“Please Quirin,” she moans, her breaths coming in ragged pants.
“I want to taste you, Kennedy. Open your legs for me,” I say. Maybe if I can make her come like this, it won’t be so bad if I lose control again.
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She lets her knees fall to the bed, watching me as I remain standing beside the bed. I lean over, taking a deep breath of her sweet scent before taking my first taste of her arousal.
“Fuck you taste so sweet,” I growl, before latching onto her clit, swirling my tongue to capture her arousal.
She begins whimpering my name as her hand grips onto my hair I growl, sliding my hands under her ass and holding her pussy against my mouth as I devour her.
Her first orgasm comes fast and hard, her arousal soaking my face. I slide a finger inside her, feeling how tight she still is. I make her come again before sliding a second finger in. I pull off her clit, using my fingers to make her come as I watch her fall apart in front of me.
“Quirin!” she cries as her inner walls pulse around my fingers.
When she comes down, I pull my fingers out of her, quickly stripping off my clothes before tugging her to the edge of the bed and lining myself at her entrance. My own breaths are coming in ragged succession as I prepare myself to get lost inside her again.
“Everything, Quirin. Give me everything,” she growls.
I roar as I thrust inside of her, once again feeling the ecstasy of being inside her slick, wet heat. I feel my canines come out, both Raif and I needing to remind our mate that she belongs to us.
She arches on the bed in front of me as I hold her thighs, unable to slow my brutal pace. I hope she knew what she was asking for when she told me to give her everything because she’s getting it.
Just as I feel her inner walls clamp down on my cock, I lean over her, sinking my canines into her marking spot, reclaiming her as mine.
She screams, pussy grabbing onto my cock like a vice grip just before I feel her canines sink into my neck.
And there it is again, fucking nirvana. I roar against her neck as her light, her shining brightness, blasts away my darkness leaving me feeling light as air and happier than I ever thought possible.
My orgasm goes on and on and when I finally come down, I pull my canines from her neck and she pulls hers from mine. I slide out of her and move her up on the bed, crawling beside her and pulling her against me.
“I can smell blood,” I say, feeling the darkness start to seep back in.
She places her hand on my cheek, forcing me to look at her. “I may bleed a couple more times, but the more we have sex, the more my body will adjust to you and then I won’t bleed any more. Echo says she’ll have me healed in no time. Don’t pull away from me again, Quirin. I wanted this. I want you. That hasn’t changed.”
I lean down and kiss her nose. “I love you so much, Little Pup.”
She pulls back and looks at me, smiling.
“What?” I ask.
“That’s the first time you’ve ever said that
you
love me.”
I frown. “Are you sure?”
“I am absolutely positive,” she says confidently.
“Well, it won’t be the last,” I tell her as she snuggles up against me
“Good, because I love you too, Quirin.”
