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Everything was starting to get overwhelming the longer I stayed within this pack. I wasn’t happy, I didn’t feel as fulfilled as I had always dreamed, it didn’t really feel like there was a future here for me anymore or if there was then maybe I needed a long break from it and then I could return to it at a later time. When I was in a much better headspace.
I made my way home, plugging in my earplugs to drown out the noise and distract myself as I went. I couldn’t hear the noises around me but I could see the frowns and sneers all of which I ignored till I was walking through the large gates of my home.
“Mom, I’m home!” I announced, heading towards the stairs.
The only thing I needed at the moment, was a hot bath and sleep.
“Welcome honey, come in here, Lila is here.” My mother called from the kitchen and I frowned slightly.
I know I had said I wanted to hang with her but that had been an excuse to get back home so I could sleep. I made my way into the kitchen surprised to find Lila dicing some carrots beside Christie, our head maid who kept adding more washed carrots to the stack. My mother was at the other end, stirring something over the stove.”
“Hi Jess. I left you a couple of texts that I’d be coming but I don’t think you saw them.” Lila said and I nodded.
“Sorry, I haven’t really been able to check my phone. How are you?” I asked, pulling out a knife and another board to assist her.
“I’m alright. I’ve missed you.” She responded and I gave her a small smile.
Lila was the only friend in the entire pack I had managed to get and actually keep since my only other friend disappeared completely from my life. We were complete opposites with the things we liked and with our personalities but somehow we
made it work.
“How was your hangout with your father and brothers? Sorry I couldn’t join you guys I didn’t feel so good.” My mother said and I gave her a little run down of all the things we had done and we all shared a couple of laughs at some point, before she decided that we had helped enough and chased us out so we could properly hangout.
“Are you okay? I didn’t want to ask in the kitchen cause I didn’t want your mom to get worried, but you don’t exactly look fine.” Lila said the moment we entered the room.
I flopped onto my Queen sized bed, buried my head in the pillows and just broke down. It was all too much for me, I didn’t feel happy here, I didn’t feel like I belonged here anymore and I hated the hatred that I got outside of my father’s mansion. I also hated pretending like it didn’t get to me.
“What’s wrong Jessy? You can talk to me.” Lila said, moving closer to me to stroke my hair comfortingly while I bawled my eyes into my pillow.
It took a while for me to stop crying but eventually I did and as I turned towards Lila to find the worry dancing in her eyes, I knew that I had to open up to someone about this.
“I don’t think I can take it anymore. I hate my life here. I hate the whispers and the stares and the pointing and people avoiding me on the streets like I have some kind of disease.”
“Oh honey, but you don’t. You’re perfectly fine just the way you are. Why don’t you tell your father about it?”
“That’s the thing! Running to him would only strengthen their whispers. They are not hurting me and there’s barely anything he can do about whispers and finger pointings. I think I just need to leave. I just want to meet new people,
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experience a different community with people who don’t even know who I am, or rather who my father is cause most of the problems start from there.
