Chapter 121
“Well don’t you think it is mean to give me a white crayon to color on a white piece of paper Jessy?” Smith asked.
“No.” Jessy replied.
I smiled lightly, while stirring the pot of food on the stove and listening to the conversation coming from the living area.
“I’m not coloring with you then.” Smith said.
“No, no. You have to color Smith.” Jessy said.
“Then give me a better crayon. Give me the green one.”
“No.”
“The purple one then.” Smith insisted.
“I wan the purple one too.”
“Jessy you’re not being fair right now. If you want me to color with you then you have to give me an actual color, you can’t give me a white crayon and ask me to color with you that’s being selfish. Smith said and I could tell that he was getting annoyed already from the tone of his voice.
Iwas just about to go and intervene when the two came whirling into the kitchen. Jessy with her crayon box in her hands and Smith with the singular white one and the drawing book in his.
“Mommy, Smith no want to color with me.” Jessy said with a pout on her lips and tears brimming in her
eyes.
“Freya, she gave me a white crayon. How I’m I supposed to be able to color with that? Give me a better crayon and I’ll color with you.” Smith said turning his attention to Jessy standing by his side.
“No!”
“Baby I think you should give Smith a better crayon so he can color with you.” I urged her and she looked into her crayon box and pulled out an orange color before offering it to me.
“Not me babe, Smith.”
Finally, with a sigh Jessy offered the orange crayon to Smith and they both moved out of the kitchen.
The last three days have been miserable for myself and Jessy. After I had left the mansion with Jessy in my arms wrapped up in a blanket, regret had filled every bone in my body at my decision.
But I couldn’t take it back, I knew that I needed to leave, I couldn’t bare to be in Greyson’s presence for a while. The hurt and anger within me would not allow me. I needed space away from him to be able to think properly about all of it.
I loved Greyson, more than I was happy to admit, but what he did to me ruined me at some point. I had to bear the consequences of his actions for the last four years. And Goddess knew how difficult the four years have been for myself and Jessy
I had no direction whatsoever when I left the mansion with Jessy in my arms, all that I knew and wanted was to be out of there as soon as possible.
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Maybe my decision had been fueled by anger and hurt but three days down the line and I didn’t exactly regret it.
Fortunately for myself and Jessy, I had met Smith on the way. The Beta had been confused to see me walking down the road with a bundled up Jessy on one arm and a small bag of belongings on another, looking lost and miserable with tears streaming down my face and without even waiting for an explanation he had brought us both to his home.
Clara had come here to attend to Jessy on Smith’s call after she woke up a few hours later and although the older woman had worked silently, I could read all the reservations she had about my decisions from her eyes and her words to me just before she left, had been the main fuel of my misery for the last three days.
“If you leave, all three of you are never going to survive it. You’re already an essential part of each other’s life. That is not something you can just up and leave. You no longer have only yourself to think about now Freya, you have to think of Jessy too and how this will affect her in the long run.
After she had left, I had just broken down in more tears and no matter how much Smith had tried to comfort me, it had been pretty useless. I had opened up to him about the entire situation after then, beginning from that night, four years ago,
until when the healer had revealed it all.
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And Smith had only held me close in his arms and listened quietly to me. I didn’t remember much after that point, only that I had woken up in bed with Jessy beside me.
And since that night, there had been nothing from Smith. He never mentioned it the next morning, neither did he ask more questions about it. He had only been the perfect host to us both
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